i feel so blessed for my mom right now, she came to that show…was supportive, and…didnt make a big deal out of that, its so lucky. i mean, she has securrity in her financial sitaution, so it frees her soul to be good, but she is…a truly wodnerful parent…and she walked in on me adn the ex, who spent the night on fri…we had sex but it felt soul less, and i asked her again, “do you really not beleive in the soul?” she said no, and i think thats why our realtionship can only get to a certian point. like, it stalls when their is no soul involved.
and im not sure she would be okay with being with someone that is trying not to drink…the women taking my picture said something interesting, a theory about people…performers who don’t date…the thing is, if you drink or use and perform, it stifiles you and it holds you back from…other areas of your life that make you happy, it subsidizes that for you…and really im saying this cause i just want a beer, buutttt, its prob not worth it…it int ugh
